… Here we go.
There is no specific topic this week. I just want to rant and know how everyone is feeling, thinking, living in this week. Seriously. That is my only concern. Because there was no way I could not address all of the turmoil and pain that has happened within this recent week. There was absolutely no way I could go about my day and ignore it. There is just no way.
These shootings… Where do I even begin? At this point in my life, after experiencing this over and over AND over again, I do not know how to feel. There are too many emotions that run through my mind that there is no possible capacity for me to express them all. I am hurt. I am heartbroken. I am angry. I am saddened. I am ready to fight. I want to do it all, but how? When? Where? Who will listen? Who will be concerned?
Is it really all on me?
I believe we all have a responsibility to take care of our fellow man, but how can we when there is so much corruption and lack of education? I am not being one-sided here. It does not only fall on the non-black community, but it also falls on the black community, my community, as well. We are all responsible for the change and action that we participate in, if any at all. A lot of us love to “talk the talk” but a lot of us refuse, or, do not “walk the walk”.
What has happened here? When did we begin to lose heart? When did we get so caught up that we forget what we are fighting for and what weapon to use? Who are “truly” our leaders? Who are for us?
There are so many questions to ask and it seems so little time to answer. Additionally, I am not asking these questions just for the black community, but I am asking for the community as a whole entity working together for one another: Who? when? where? and why?.
For me and mine, I know my definite answer is God. I can only speak for myself and for fellow believers when I say: That I know that I know THAT I KNOW God has my back. But my answer isn’t just only God, but is the action of God that has been placed in all of us as believers. There is no reason to fear or to be in such anguish that I twist and turn all night. I can have peace in chaos and I can have quiet in the storm. However, that does not stop the tears from flowing and the anger that burns my chest when I see injustice and division.
Division is exactly what Satan wants. He wants to divide and conquer; to take us out one by one. Death is not his only plan, but it seems to be taking over long before we even hit the grave. This is not the time to back down; it’s time to fight and fight effectively.
There is so much talk about to what to do and how to do it… “Racial sensitivity classes,…more effective laws,… community forums,…”, I have heard so many people say. Indeed, those are and would be very effective. But, in all of that, I think there is one thing we tend to forget in our fight for reform that we can accomplish all these things, but if people are not willing to change their heart, there is no way in this world that their minds will change.
In my opinion, it is their heart that we should be after. We can change the scenery, but that does not make the center object look any prettier. I know that many of you are probably saying, “Who has time for that?”, and I understand. But, if we never take time to find out, how will we know? Reform is effective, but things will remain the same if we do not get to the root of these issues.
Yes, I know, not everybody is going to comply. I do not expect everyone to do so. However, it only takes one person to care to change the course of one generation.
Additionally, one side of the spectrum is not the only side that is right. If you ever go into an argument with the intention of being right, you have already lost. You win when you can listen to both sides, respectively (whether you agree or not), and make a well informed decision about your belief. In addition to that, you never enter into an argument without being properly educated on what you are talking about, and this does not mean getting your sources from the media because they lie too.
I am not sure what else to say, nor, what else more I can do. I have turned to God in faith; I know what the Word says about this and prayer is what I do. But I hear Him loud and clear…
“Keep working”
This time is not a time to grow faint and weary; this is not a time to become lazy; and this is not a time for us to sit around in our comfortable, Christian groups talking among each other about what we want and need to do. It is a time take our friends and go out & do!
Trust me, I am super guilty of not going out and doing as I am suppose too. It is our responsibility to go out and be disciples of Christ in this Earth realm. The Earth is moaning and groaning from the pains of people; people are desperately seeking the truth!
We are the Salt of the earth; the Light in the Darkness. We are exactly where we need to be, right here, in this generation. Do not let fear & rejection consume you! God has given us a sound mind, power, and love (2nd Timothy 1:7). We may not have the freedom to do whatever we want, but we have the freedom to shake loose the things that disturb us the most.
It’s time to stand and be strong. It’s a time to move.
Rest In Peace: Alton Sterling, Philando Castile, and Dallas PD who lost their lives this week. Let us keep their loved ones in prayer and continue to pray for all who are hurting in this moment.
Let us love up on one another.
We need it.
Love ya fam,
With Love,
T.
Enjoying the sweetness of god 