Dear God,
What do you do when everything around you is suddenly changing and you are in the midst of it all? What do you do when it causes a tick of discomfort and you suddenly want to hide? What do you do when all the things that you once knew are changing to something new?
I am not sure what to do. I know that I love change, but I am not sure I love it to the point where everyday there is a twing of pain that is leading me to better path. I don’t like it, but it is productive.
Why can’t it be easier? Why does it have to be “growing pains”? I am not quite sure I understand it all, and I really do not have to understand it all, but I do know that this is not pleasant, but it helps to move me out of the position I was in.
Not sure what all of this has to do with my future positions in life, but I am willing to accept it.
I am just tired of the up and down parts. It is like one moment I have my high, floating above Cloud 9 and beyond. I feel as though everything is going really good, then boom! Something happens and I become a bit sad or overwhelmed.
Maybe I wasn’t content in the first place. Maybe it is just life. Maybe I am thinking too much into this and not letting something be as it should.
Just maybe… it is simply change
Who knows? I mean, you do, but I know I don’t! Lol.
But whatever the case, I have no other option but to trust in You. I know that is something that I cannot lose in, nor lose it at all. It something that comes gradually but withstands all trials, tribulations, high water, low water, or no water at all.
I know I can truly depend on you, God.
& With that, my stability stands clear and without fumble.
Enjoying the sweetness of god 