John 14:28-29 (NLT) reads, “Remember what I told you: I am going away, but I will come back to you again. If you really loved me, you would be happy that I am going to the Father, who is greater than I am. I have told you these things before they happen so that when they do happen, you will believe.”
Dear Husband,
When first starting this series, and God put this scripture on my heart, I said… “Lord, What in the world does this mean?!”. When I drew near to writing the 4th part of this series, I became afraid and dumped it. I left the assignment behind. Or… so I thought…
The last two years have been rough… Besides the social climate of the world, my internal world was breaking apart. I begin to like someone else and thought they were you. But… signs, wonders, dreams, and visions from God proved otherwise. It proved that He loved me and would not allow for me to choose someone other than you. I feel like I faced the worst of the worst in heartache thus far but it gave me the courage to push forward, forgive, and move on.
But it also proved that His love comes in the form of correction.
So, for the last year, I have been healing. Like, truly healing. Healing from past relationships, letting go of the ones that no longer served the life God has promised me before I stepped into it. I began to embrace every promise from God. So, here I am today. Right back where I started but with a lot more courage and no fear. So, now, you probably must wonder what all of this means including John 14:28-29? Me too.
Here is what I picture in my mind: I see Jesus, standing among the disciples, explaining his preeminent death on the cross. I can also picture the sadness and the swallowing of the lump of fear in the throats of the disciples when Jesus says, “Remember what I told you, I am going away, but I will come back to you again.” But how? When death was seen as permanent before their faith witnessed Jesus conquer it?
This is how Holy Spirit revealed it to me… That although Jesus was separating himself from the earth, His presence was never far. He was in the face of the Father to advocate for us, but He is also impressed on our soul, spirit, and heart. He never went anywhere except in physical space. That in just a little while, with patience and perseverance, everything will be back and greater.
That in a small moment when I walked away and came back, He was waiting for me. That in just a little while all what was lost and stolen in moments of feeding the desires of the flesh, will return as restitution, recompense, and restoration.
Jesus gave them peace of mind and heart, and to not be troubled nor afraid, just one verse above before telling them the news of His departure. I find all this comforting because in my chosen distractions, I left God to feed what I believe He would never give and I forfeited and lost everything — my joy, peace, safety, and hope. However!
However! GREATER IS HE! Because when I came back to God, He accepted and corrected me, and put me in a season of being taught and softened again. I was stripped of the earthly garments I chose to put on. Once vulnerable and emotionally/spiritually naked, He clothed me with dignity. The very things I forfeited — my safety, joy, peace, and overall true love came back. My true love, Jesus, advocated for me. He prayed for me. Never giving up hope that I was lost; I was the one that He left the 99 behind for. I am grateful.
My true love, Jesus, advocated for me. He prayed for me. Never giving up hope that I was lost; I was the one that He left the 99 behind for. I am grateful.
So, why did I say all of this to say exactly what?! A mouthful I know, lol. But I said this to say… In just a little while, everything will be back to where it was; lost but now recovered and restored. And as we wait, I am going to the Father, following in the footsteps of Jesus, as am I awaiting for His perfect timing to meet you.
Love you,
T.
Enjoying the sweetness of god 